A Hearing Test

 

Last night, the sister missionaries came over and shared a message with us, then challenged us to listen daily for things God is trying to teach us, and record it.  I 've been doing something similar but their challenge is taking it a step further.  I 've been trying to acknowledge when I feel Him by saying: “I felt that!”  I like this new twist to go one step further from FEELING God to HEARING Him, and acknowledging it by writing it down.  

  I experience God as a warm rush of  love flowing through me. It's always accompanied with enlightenment, positivity, and productive energy. To be honest, The Spirit and caffeine…feel the same. 🙄  It is the perfect counterfeit!!!!  

For the past few years, I would take 100mg of caffeine (aka 100mg of joy) with my medication each morning and, like clockwork…15 min later I’d feel the warm and fuzzy, clear thinking, positive joy in life.  Was it the Spirit?  Caffeine? Or the medication?   As good as it felt, and as real as it felt…I knew it was not the “real deal,” but I looked forward to it anyway.  It was what I needed to function with a smile.  Until it wasn’t.  

Out of nowhere, I started experiencing side effects.  To rule out what was causing them I tapered off my meds, and sure enough the problems went away but I was feeling fine WITHOUT taking medication.  So, I haven’t  gone back to them. Getting my daily dose of “happiness” is not as easy or predictable as the 15min release time of the caffeine, but I am feeling God.  It is a gift I look forward to everyday.  Now, when I feel Him I KNOW it is the real deal and I acknowledge it:  “I feel you! Thank you!”  

I'll call this week my "Hearing test."